first blog!

oh gosh the last week has been annoying...

i must say i don;t feel too bad
not as bad as i have been
but some people really do annoy the shit out of me

take me 'boyfriend', jake, for example, i say 'boyfriend' cos i think he's not really anymore. Friday evening he was suppose to come round mine and then never turned up. His phones been switched of since and he hasn't made any effort to contact me. ok... so he could be in a coma or some but i very much dought it haha. I'm not distrought because we hasn't been together long. but it's a shame really becasue things seemed to be going so well... and he's suddenly turned into a wanker like the rest of them

and then there is my best mates 'boyfriend' who only just broke up with her. does he not realise lara is one of the best things in his life and he's chucked it away. I spent the last two nights with lara comforting her. it's good to see her... but it grates on you to see a mate so depressed

my ex, josh, is continuing with his 'my life is so shit' routine on msn which is pissing me off. get over it you have a great girlfreind who is totally in love with you and gives you great sex, you've left school like you wanted to and you're making some money... stop the complaining! he really does annoy me sometimes haha

AND to top it off... i was suppose to be rehearsing for the edinburgh festival all of this week, but the shows been canceled! how annoying! however maybe now it gives the oppertunity fot the crew to go away again this summer. make it a proper tradition

anyways i'm off to live some more of my life i'll update you when i ever get the chance

xxxxx

ye ok so i kinda haven't been on this for a while, but a lot of stuff has happend so hold tight.

ok... so new years eve, typical get drunk at random persons house who I didn't really know, danced around like a fool, got offered a threesom with two gay guys (oh how i laughed). me and lara ended up having to stay at my best freind's (cat's) boyfriend's (James') house cos i couldn't get home which was rather awquared becasue of his drunken state. After a couple of strangley rolled splifs i fell asleep on his bedroom floor, waking up to the usuall dry mouth and terrible headache you get from having a stupidly silly night out.

New years day was spent with my boyfreind Josh. We had a nice lazy day at home, discussing funny events from the night before.

friday 25... Josh's rock night. I wanted every1 to come and see my amazingly hot boyfriend play his amazingly hot guitar in his amazingly hot band... unfortunatly after the show josh was a complete dick to me, not knowing if he even realised i got very upset... and that was the night i decided to break up with him, and i think he might have got the message after cat slapped him in the face after he pissed her off becasue of being an prick haha. So ye the rest of the night was pretty shit becasue i was so upset. Eveyone was really nice though and helped cheer me up.

saturday... getting through work was hard, I kept having to hold back the tears. In the evening lara came round, and she desided she would take me for a walk. It actually really helped, it was bloody freezing but the air was a nice contrast to the stuffiness of my bedroom, which could only make someone even more upset. We sat on the swings in the park and sung songs and ate chocolate.

sunday... had a big argument with josh on msn, I've never been so meen to anyone in my life! Then again he deserved it for the things he was saying to me.
"Grow up Josh, everyone hates you" I said
"Stop talking to me then, all the girls loved me who i fucked without you knowing" he said
he later claimed he'd never cheated on me, he was just really mad at me. I think I believe him now.

It is now valentines day and i'm writing this blog. Me and josh haven't really talked since that day, but i can say now that i know i'm pretty much over him, but it's a shame that our relationship had to end like that, I wish we'd been able to talk it out, in person, rather than msn , that's my one regret about being with Josh.

I got a guy's number at work yesterday, his name is chris, but everyone calls him monkey (you don't want to know why haha). and he is like HOT. hopefully i'll get to meet up with him sometime soon

awww men... don't you just love them! haha!

ooook so i've jst set up this acount... probabley to distract me from doing more important things like the HUGE amount of homework i have to get done tonight haha.

so anyways. driving was fun today, i actually drove myself home; this scared the shite out of me lol. unfortunately stalling at a very busy set of traffic light didn't seem to pleese the massive queue of people behind me .

so now i guese i should make a start on the never ending nightmare of a business studies essay

xxxxxx